I want you
to live in my mind,
assaulted by the thoughts
and chaos, and try to
judge me.
– Jas ©️
I want you
to live in my mind,
assaulted by the thoughts
and chaos, and try to
judge me.
– Jas ©️
you
go into your head
to escape the
horrors of reality;
judging my outbursts
and attention seeking,
wondering why I
talk too much or
never enough,
but never stop
to realize your comfort
is my worst enemy and
I can’t be alone
in my head.
– Jas ©
a little funny story for peoples mornings.
at night when the little ones asleep i go upstairs to the garage and smoke ( yes i started smoking again you judgmental bitches =p)
well i really wanted to smoke and relax from a hard day last night so im sitting in the garage getting some fresh air enjoying my blunt.I have her on the monitor so i know if she moves or whatever.
She starts to move and cry, i let her to see if shell put herself back to sleep. Nope, instead she decides to sit up and cry for me more so i have to put out my smoke real quick and run downstairs so she wont throw herself off the bed. (she sleeps in my bed with me)
So, i run down the stairs for her and and im running towards our room when my foot slips on a fucking hanger and i crash onto the floor, phone goes flying.
My daughter has no idea that i had just fallen despite the the really loud ” Ow, Fuck!” because shes still crying.
I cant just lay here in pain and try to figure out if i broke anything, so i hobbled to the bed and took care of her.
All the while going shit my arm hurt, wait my knee hurts too, oh man and my hip.
i waited for her to fall back asleep to go check out my injuries.
safe to say nothing is broken lol but i am sore as fuck.
Boyfriend thinks its hilarious. I cant wait until he falls. Jerk.
daughter needs me again, this time i wont be running
later loves xo
-Jas
stabbing
at my brain
letting the words
flow out, watching
as they try to
make sense.
-Jas©
wide awake
with nothing
else to do but
argue with
my thoughts
-Jas©
at night
it’s just me, my blunt
and my thoughts
-Jas©
I want to spend
hours in the dark
with you by my side,
talking random thoughts
and exchanging sensual kisses.
-Jas©
I’ve been gone for a while it seems, oops.
I was and still am dealing with a crazy, cranky teething baby- come on teeth pop out already. She has been teething for the last three months! Can you say drooly McDrool. Well the last couple of says have shown some promise and I’m prettt sure her first tooth will come out this weekend.
She has also turned 6 months old today. HOLY SHIT. why does it go so first. Alex joked she’ll be off to college in no time. Whyyy is he so mean lol. The good thing,we can finally begin BLW (baby led weaning) which is essentially giving baby the foods you eat no purees.
So for the last week or so I’ve been emerged in research and recipe collecting. We kinda started last night with some strawberries, a banana, cantaloupe and a piece of french toast. She loved it all and ate everything we gave her.
Another thing i was busy with during my absence was looking for a new car. We had a 300 (lease) but with no space and going over miles we needed a new vehicle. One that would be good family wise and one that can be a good vacation car to get us to NY in Aug.
Drum roll….
I talked the boyfriend into getting a minivan! We got the new Pacifica and its absolutely awesome. I can’t wait to go traveling with that badboy.
I’ll try not to disappear again.
Hope all is well with everyone and I will try to catch up with posts.
-Jas
my free time
is occupied with
thoughts of us.
-Jas©
sometimes i just
need to be left alone;
sitting with my own thoughts
and forgetting your bullshit.
-Jas©