magical

I’m not looking

for magic- I am

the magic.

-Jas©

Bittersweet

i found myself

in your tears

-Jas©

decisions

i lost a part of myself;

the part i enjoyed most

is no longer with me and

i have to try to figure out

if i want to get it  back or

if i’m better without it.

-Jas©

a little time

I have to

find time for

myself even if its

just 5 minutes.

-Jas©

not letting go

I should have

let you go,

but I couldn’t give

a piece of myself

away.

-Jas©

don’t need you

you were the

liquor in my veins and

the smoke in my lungs;

the thing I thought

I needed to be myself.

-Jas©

me before you

I walked away

from you to

find myself .

-Jas©

no love

I hate myself;

therefore,

I cant love

you.

-Jas©

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whoa.  Jas from a year ago was pretty upset with herself . Another old draft post.

denial

I have an

amazing ability

to deny something

is happening or happened;

Its like it never existed or

not real- a disconnection

from myself allows me

to fool myself.

-Jas©

so bad

It feels so bad

to be good;

unfamiliar skin

uncomfortable to

the touch;

alien thoughts

taking over mine;

I’m not myself

when I’m trying

for you.

-Jas©