The last few months

Holy shit so much has happened in the last few months or so I feel like it. It’s been one crazy ass rollercoaster that’s about to fall off the tracks.

I had my third kiddo 6 months ago.. damn he’s already 6 months old. Yes that means my other two are already 5 and almost 3 😮

My daughter (the firstborn) started preK. My son was more upset than she was, but she’s thriving and loving it.

The husband and I celebrated 16 years together in October ( only 3 years married though).

My mother passed away in November (I’m going to write a whole post about that) and that has been difficult to deal with.

I went a took a class to become a Mortgage Loan Originator- the state test is coming up, fingers crossed 🤞

I celebrated 1 year in therapy recently too and I think I graduated since my current therapist wants me to go see someone else and get medicated 🤣

On the matter of medication my anxiety and depression went on a stroll and met up with post partum depression…what bitches.





I’ve been gone for a while it seems, oops. 

I was and still am dealing with a crazy, cranky teething baby- come on teeth pop out already. She has been teething for the last three months! Can you say drooly McDrool. Well the last couple of says have shown some promise and I’m prettt sure her first tooth will come out this weekend.

She has also turned 6 months old today. HOLY SHIT. why does it go so first. Alex joked she’ll be off to college in no time. Whyyy is he so mean lol. The good thing,we can finally begin BLW (baby led weaning) which is essentially giving baby the foods you eat no purees. 

So for the last week or so I’ve been emerged in research and recipe collecting. We kinda started last night with some strawberries, a banana, cantaloupe and a piece of french toast. She loved it all and ate everything we gave her.

Another thing i was busy with during my absence was looking for a new car. We had a 300 (lease) but with no space and going over miles we needed a new vehicle.  One that would be good family wise and one that can be a good vacation car to get us to NY in Aug. 

Drum roll….

I talked the boyfriend into getting a minivan! We got the new Pacifica and its absolutely awesome. I can’t wait to go traveling with that badboy. 

I’ll try not to disappear again.

Hope all is well with everyone and I will try to catch up with posts. 


in the face of danger…


kidding. I think.

I was holding the little monster sitting on the couch minding my own business when the baby daddy yells “OH MY GOD!!” while reaching for me. Out the corner of my eye I see a spider and i threw/let go of the baby. I also caught her within seconds realizing what I had done.  

She just looked at me with this WTF face. Oops, my bad i really didn’t mean to do it but i freak out when there are spiders around. 

I felt so bad but it is totally Alex’s fault for yelling like that. Do not yell at me if there is a spider just kill the fucking thing or i will flip. 

Mother of the year award definitely  goes to me. 

Alex jokes that if anything dangerous were to really happen or some kind of trouble I would be the woman already running head of them. 

I dont think he is wrong 😊

sigh, gotta keep a look out for those little beasts 🕷


Finally Over

My mini vacation is finally over. I guess you cant call it a vacation when you didn’t even go anywhere.  Alex’s family had come and while it was nice to see people it was a little too loud for me and Grace. She was good most times and really cranky other times. Her bed time has been all fucked up too. I’m glad to be getting back into our normal schedule.

Easter was pretty good for us. Here are some of my favorite photos from that day.

Little one is teething hence the fingers in her mouth, she also found her dress to be delicious.

Hope nothing too crazy has happened  while I was gone. =)


Family Time.

I have been gone lately sorry, we have family here from NY and with a new baby everyone wants a piece of her. 

I have little time to write or even read anything on WordPress. They are leaving in a couple of days so I will be back then. 

Hope everyone is doing well, having a great Easter weekend.

We will be celebrating Easter, Alex graduating from college and my little monster turning 4 months. 

later xo


New Year

Happy New Year!

Update time.

On December 16 i had my little munchkin, right before the midnight hour. I had to be induced the day before and then i had to have an emergency c section but it was all worth it. Shes the cutiest thing ive ever seen (and im not just saying that since shes my kid)

Hospital picture..already mean muggin it.

The hospital was fun…not. By time the weekend ended i was soo ready to go home. I had enough of nurses (albeit nice) coming in checking on me, i had enough of the shitty hospital food, and enough of those hospital walls. I did have an awesome room but id rather be in my own bed.

That monday i was discharged,yay! Rven though the midwife asked me if i wanted to stay an extra day.. pffh 4 days was good enough for me.. i wanted to get the fuck out of there, especially since my family was coming in three days.

My mom and stepdad came for christmas and spent a week with us. I love them but having them here along with the mother in law and a newborn had been emotionally draining. I definitely had an attitude more than i would have liked (and still have )but shit happens, i just had a baby. Having both grandmas in the house was lets say another experience. One that i dont care to repeat anytime soon or ever again haha.

Christmas was good, different since im used to going back home but was still nice. Had a little dinner his mom cooked; the sister in law (one that lives here) ended up coming over later in the night with her family. I cooked the Christmas Day dinner because why the fuck not 🙄.

The day my family left was the same day the sister in law and niece flew in from New York. They will be here for a couple more days. I dont mind them so much only because i actually get time for me and the little one without being bothered to go upstairs and stay with the family.

Squishhh faceee

Even as i right this, im in bed with the little one laid out across me sleeping (my arm is going numb but shes too cute too move) I still cant believe im a mom, crazy shit. I cant wait to we actually have time to ourselves and i dont have to share her (im greedy)

Last night we just stayed home with his mom, sisters and nieces (yes he was outnumbered in a house full of women) i was ready for bed by 9 but had to stay awake until the ball dropped..longest 3 hours EVER.

Good news(i think): baby sleeps through most of the night so im not sleep deprived but im also worried since uhm baby sleeps through the night lol. I cant tell if its normal or not but she eats well and seems happy so im not complaining.

Well my arm is officially numb and im starving so we will wish you a Happy New Year filled with lots of happiness, good things and blah blahs

Laters 💚


A Younger Siblings Revenge.

My brother is 13 years older than me and even though he was semi nice , he can be a little douchey. Its obviously  gotten better since I moved out and became an adult but I’ll  never forget the younger years.

The boyfriend has gotten sick and needed salt water. While filling up the bottle I remarked that he was putting way to much salt and he wouldn’t  even be able to use it.

Turns out I was right. (Again)

Way too much salt, he barely gargled with it then didnt want it anymore. By this time, we’re sitting in my brother room(one of the only spots you could smoke in)he has bottles laying around so I decided to put the water bottle overdosed with salt on his table. Right up top, in a spot must likely to draw attention.

At this point, I was just doing it in hopes he’ll drink it but thinking no one would ever drink a quarter of a water bottle just laying around. ( I don’t, it turns into the cats water)

So I left it there and left. He was working so I had forgotten all about it until later that night when he came in,looking sick and asked      “what the fuck was in that water bottle?!”

The boyfriend and I just looked at each other and then fell over dying of laughter

“OMG you drank it!!! Hahaha, he actually drank it!” Tears rolling down my eyes.

My brothers face:priceless

” you bitch,why the fuck is there salt  in it?”

“Alex needed it and put wayyyy to much salt so I wanted to see you drink it, hahaha”

Instant grill.

” I can’t  believe you.” As he left all disgusted.

I still cant believe he drank it, toooooo hilarious. Yes, I may be a little fucked up and evil but it was totally worth it.

Got em.


Dual Celebrations this Season!

All hail Krampus!


For years I’ve celebrated christmas because Idk my mother told me to, now its just a time of season where I get to go home.

I’m not religious (shh dont tell mine or lex’s families), and I dont care what people celebrate,as should be,so I’ve  decided to embrace  my inner darkness.

Celebrating those naughty people and kidnapping a few along the way.

Of course, by the way, I am going to be celebrating christmas,which I don’t know what that says about me-does it still count if I dont go to church,ever? Is it blasphemy?  I mean I do live a life of sin. Ah dilemmas of growing up in a Catholic household.

I leave for back home in less than two weeks. I’m  not ready.  If someone wants a stranger for christmas, let me know I’ll skip out on my house  and the thousands of questions I dont want to answer. I’m  already practicing my smiling face and getting my lies in order.

You’re  supposed to feel good when you go home, not feel shitty with your disappointing answers. My family really is nice,but they have this standard of me that I can’t live up to and I can already here them “oh,jas” ugh worse two words everrr.

In the bright side, Lex got a new car (2016 chrysler 300) and we get to pick it up monday. On the downside, I have to hear “I got a caaarrr, I got a carr. I’m  a man again.” Until monday.

Weekend hurry up and be over.