When will this semester end, it has been nothinggg but a pulling of the teeth,headaches,nausea,depression,anxiety,anger,stress,and shit breaking.
4 more days. 4 long days.
All day Sunday I was busy watching videos on coding (real simple stuff) and it was okayy for the first hour, which then turned into fucking four. I was done. Mentally, physically-sitting in a horrible position taking notes, not such a smart idea. By the time that was all over I didnt want to do shit. But seeing this is the only class I’m passing might as well put some effort into it.
Coding. Fuck coding.
I’m kidding, if I had more time I probably would have enjoyed it more. But given a four hour deadline left me with little interest or desire.
I was coding. It was going well.
” omg, look babee I madee thatt and it does thisss!”
I felt like a fucking genius.
In my major and minor I’m used to doing well, they invovle writing,the only thing my professors think im semi good at.
So when I’m taking a class outside of my comfort zone and do good well its a special kind of feeling. Elation. I actually feel good about myself for a moment.
But all moments end and codes cant be solved. No matter how hard you try;goggling every phrase possible, rewatching videos, hitting the help button,some things are fucking assholes.
Forever,one little code wouldn’t work. Tried everything in the capable to make it work but nope. I was over it. Didnt care. Have an A in the class and a final exam still to take. So I sent it in. Whatever points I get, doesnt weigh a lot,I get.
That was the first fuck you.
Woke up today sooo fucking down knowing that I had a paper due for a class I’m failing. I looked at it,started writing it and my I,K and comma buttons didnt work.
This was a problem but not that big of a deal, will eventually worked.
This time…no. I’m already pissy and not in the mood to do ANYTHING and now my computer wants to mess with me.
Long story short. Fuck my life. Fuck that paper that wasnt turned in and fuck my computer.
I’m just really done with this semester.
I want to crawl under a rock and come back out in January when the new semester starts. (Yay).
P.s pretty sure a record for fucks given 😜