I’ve accepted,
I’m not someone
you are willing to grow for.
-Jas
I’ve accepted,
I’m not someone
you are willing to grow for.
-Jas
It was the way
the taste of your lips
imprinted on my brain,
forever.
– Jas©
your kisses
send a fire through
my veins, spreading
to my thighs- crying
out for you to sate
my burning desire.
-Jas ©
all day
I longed for
your warm embrace –
to have you wrapped
around me, taking away
the sadness of the day.
– Jas ©
I’m promising
to be gentle, calm and kind
to myself.
-Jas ©
Also promising to write daily even when I have nothing to say.
Holy shit so much has happened in the last few months or so I feel like it. It’s been one crazy ass rollercoaster that’s about to fall off the tracks.
I had my third kiddo 6 months ago.. damn he’s already 6 months old. Yes that means my other two are already 5 and almost 3 😮
My daughter (the firstborn) started preK. My son was more upset than she was, but she’s thriving and loving it.
The husband and I celebrated 16 years together in October ( only 3 years married though).
My mother passed away in November (I’m going to write a whole post about that) and that has been difficult to deal with.
I went a took a class to become a Mortgage Loan Originator- the state test is coming up, fingers crossed 🤞
I celebrated 1 year in therapy recently too and I think I graduated since my current therapist wants me to go see someone else and get medicated 🤣
On the matter of medication my anxiety and depression went on a stroll and met up with post partum depression…what bitches.
Later,
Jas
10 days since you came;
10 days since I lost myself, again.
trying to figure out
how to be human-
a mother, wife, a woman,
is completely overwhelming.
– Jas ©
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my 3rd was born 8.11 and everything just seems upside down.. at least he’s cute 🙃
the funny thing
about kids is that
they’ll never run out
of energy when they
are constantly sucking it
out from you
– Jas ©
I just wish
you would give me
the same level
of respect and energy
that I pour into you.
– Jas ©
you
go into your head
to escape the
horrors of reality;
judging my outbursts
and attention seeking,
wondering why I
talk too much or
never enough,
but never stop
to realize your comfort
is my worst enemy and
I can’t be alone
in my head.
– Jas ©