woke up sore

a little funny story for peoples mornings.

at night when the little ones asleep i go upstairs to the garage and smoke ( yes i started smoking again you judgmental bitches =p)

well i really wanted to smoke and relax from a hard day last night so im sitting in the garage getting some fresh air enjoying my blunt.I have her on the monitor so i know if she moves or whatever.

She starts to move and cry, i let her to see if shell put herself back to sleep. Nope, instead she decides to sit up and cry for me more so i have to put out my smoke real quick and run downstairs so she wont throw herself off the bed. (she sleeps in my bed with me)

So, i run down the stairs for her and and im running towards our room when my foot slips on a fucking hanger and i crash onto the floor, phone goes flying.

My daughter has no idea that i had just fallen despite the the really loud ” Ow, Fuck!”  because shes still crying.

I cant just lay here in pain and try to figure out if i broke anything, so i hobbled to the bed and took care of her.

All the while going shit my arm hurt, wait my knee hurts too, oh man and my hip.

i waited for her to fall back asleep to go check out my injuries.

safe to say nothing is broken lol but i am sore as fuck.

Boyfriend thinks its hilarious. I cant wait until he falls. Jerk.

daughter needs me again, this time i wont be running

later loves xo






Woke up this morning to all the awesome love (likes and comments) uhm you guys really do fucking rock and are hilarious.

I’m attempting to get my shit together for the thousandth time; fuck, ive said that so many times I feel its pretty meaningless. There’s no point in telling the boyfriend “ive heard that before” is pretty predictable and expected, we’ve been here so many fucking times. nonetheless, ill walk through  this seedy, dark town, exit through the dilapidated gates and linger on the outskirts.

I never go to far.

No matter how far I say I am, I’m only a few feet away.

Maybe things will be different this time (shit I really should start collecting money for repeat sayings and promises)

I’m gonna try my daamn hardest to make it different but only if hes worth it. I’m just tired of having to pretend im something im not to compensate his feelings and needs.

Ugh I wont go into a whole thing about us, perhaps some other time.

Thanks everyone, love ya guys.

hope your day(s) have been going well.

I will be here and there today but I will get to all the comments, eventually =)



uhm, thanks ..again

Screenshot_2016-02-15-23-03-34suck  it babe, I got 500(1) followers, bitch!

ah yes I received this last night.. honestly I’m not quite sure how this happened but whatevs I’m not gonna complain.

*Insert how long ive been blogging*

*insert some sentimental shit*

seriously, I don’t know how many more times I will be able to say how truly awesome every single one of you fuckers are.. uhmm an unlimited supply of icecream dusted with a light coating of marijuana type awesome=D

love ya guys