woke up sore

a little funny story for peoples mornings.

at night when the little ones asleep i go upstairs to the garage and smoke ( yes i started smoking again you judgmental bitches =p)

well i really wanted to smoke and relax from a hard day last night so im sitting in the garage getting some fresh air enjoying my blunt.I have her on the monitor so i know if she moves or whatever.

She starts to move and cry, i let her to see if shell put herself back to sleep. Nope, instead she decides to sit up and cry for me more so i have to put out my smoke real quick and run downstairs so she wont throw herself off the bed. (she sleeps in my bed with me)

So, i run down the stairs for her and and im running towards our room when my foot slips on a fucking hanger and i crash onto the floor, phone goes flying.

My daughter has no idea that i had just fallen despite the the really loud ” Ow, Fuck!”  because shes still crying.

I cant just lay here in pain and try to figure out if i broke anything, so i hobbled to the bed and took care of her.

All the while going shit my arm hurt, wait my knee hurts too, oh man and my hip.

i waited for her to fall back asleep to go check out my injuries.

safe to say nothing is broken lol but i am sore as fuck.

Boyfriend thinks its hilarious. I cant wait until he falls. Jerk.

daughter needs me again, this time i wont be running

later loves xo






Woke up this morning to all the awesome love (likes and comments) uhm you guys really do fucking rock and are hilarious.

I’m attempting to get my shit together for the thousandth time; fuck, ive said that so many times I feel its pretty meaningless. There’s no point in telling the boyfriend “ive heard that before” is pretty predictable and expected, we’ve been here so many fucking times. nonetheless, ill walk through  this seedy, dark town, exit through the dilapidated gates and linger on the outskirts.

I never go to far.

No matter how far I say I am, I’m only a few feet away.

Maybe things will be different this time (shit I really should start collecting money for repeat sayings and promises)

I’m gonna try my daamn hardest to make it different but only if hes worth it. I’m just tired of having to pretend im something im not to compensate his feelings and needs.

Ugh I wont go into a whole thing about us, perhaps some other time.

Thanks everyone, love ya guys.

hope your day(s) have been going well.

I will be here and there today but I will get to all the comments, eventually =)



uhm, thanks ..again

Screenshot_2016-02-15-23-03-34suck  it babe, I got 500(1) followers, bitch!

ah yes I received this last night.. honestly I’m not quite sure how this happened but whatevs I’m not gonna complain.

*Insert how long ive been blogging*

*insert some sentimental shit*

seriously, I don’t know how many more times I will be able to say how truly awesome every single one of you fuckers are.. uhmm an unlimited supply of icecream dusted with a light coating of marijuana type awesome=D

love ya guys





a nonaward award post.

     okay I dont even know where to start. I wasn’t originally going to do anything about the awards then I was and I had even started a post then I realized I was just not feeling it, it happens(no offense to anyone!). It has been a little over 2 weeks since the first award came in and ive decided to go against all the rules and everything and make this as short as possible.

     I’m not good with compliments, I tend to get stiff and slowly back away. So the fact that people acknowledged me and thought I should get these was something of a surprise. Pretty sure that’s why I pushed it off for so long, but then my conscience was eating at me and called me a bitch for not participating, so here I am. Oh first and last time btw, sorry people unless there’s a rad award like “baddest bitch” ill opt out.

So the following people have nominated me for: The Blogger Recognition Award, One Lovely Blog Award, and A(?) Sunshine Award.

The Weaver,(BR)

Dialogue from the Depths,(BR)

Seeing the whisper(BR)

Mysterious Mind Of Mine.(LB)

Gentle Kindness(SA)

The Poor Uni Student(LB)

everyone single one of them I think is decently awesome 😉

kidding you guys rock, definitely go check out their blogs

if you have not.


Wait finishing reading first.

I know there are requirements and “rules” that

go along with these things, but I think you know

me well about now to know fuck the rules.

Here are some people that I think are worthy enough(everyone is seriously and I’m not giving out awards here but just trying to help out some fellow bloggers, those who deserve more followers.)

My Virtual Wife ❤ Spilledink..



A Standard Issued Life


The Bull and The Lotus

Lola Frofro

Tiffany being free


Mils’ Life/Work Lab



Breaking the Silence

okays thats to name a few, if you feel like I missed (sorryyy)

you or want to get a shoutout comment below.

AND finally because I guess people don’t really know me

here are some facts about little ole me.

1.   I’m starting my own library, okay im really not but I like to think one day I will. I have a small collection of 550 books and around 580 comics and still growing

2. I’m a Bronx girl, that can let it out in a second.

3. I am into men and women- yes I have a boyfriend, yes he knows. Its not like I’m banging everyone I see-just thinking about it =)

4. I’m really straight forward, don’t beat around the bush with me because I will stop talking to you, immediately.

5.  I cant stand small talk. Talk to me about something interesting or nothing at all (sorry babe)

6. I can be the ultimate bitch one minute and your best friend the next.. its kinda scary.

7. Since people (wont point fingers) cant figure it out I am a female! Haha if I had a dollar for every time I was mistaken for a man on the internet I would be filthy rich. Its obviously the way I talk but I’m not quite sure why it happens so often.

8. I don’t like chocolate, I’ve have been known to take a bite and automatically regret it chucking it across the room. Disgusting.

9. I also hate coffee and I don’t drink soda or liquor (my body hates me) only water.

10.   I believe hamburgers and steak should be bloody, those who don’t are wrong.

11. Some of my favorite movies are Pulp Fiction, Watchmen, The Devils Rejects and

The Dark Knight. I can seriously watch those movies a million times.

12. I hate  pictures of myself.. ” can you stop making a face and just smile already”

13. I obviously love the color black and metal music

14. I have a love hate relationship with cats,

I love them but then hate them because my eyes are itchy(damn you allergies)

15. my brain actually only functions 5 hours throughout the day,

the rest of the time its in hibernation.

Well I think that’s good enough for now.

I also think this is the longest post(puke)

off to go see my hubby Wade ❤


P.S omg how could I forget to say thank you to all the new followers!!

Well thank you soo much; Fine

thank you old followers too =) love ya fckers

you like me

somewhere on google lol


Maybe I’ll keep you.. for now

So this is a late birthday present post and you’ll find out if you keep reading.

Fun fact: I’m a nerd, a geek, whatever the fuck you want to call me.

And for my birthday a couple of weeks ago the boyfriend got me these:


and said I had to wait on the last gift. At that point, I’m asking a million questions- I need to know what the fuck it is. Long story short I accidentally(I swear I didn’t do it on purpose) saw an email with my gift information in the subject. I exited out as quickly as possibly and was going to act surprised when the gift came but that logic lasted less than a day. I told him I saw what the gift was about- I still didn’t know exactly what it was.

“omg, is it customized shoes?!”

“shit, no that would have been good though”

“oh. yeah that would have been cool, but I bet I’ll still love it!”

I was supposed to wait till next month but the gift came early, this afternoon. Now, when I show you and tell you what it is, you may all laugh and think its a funny gift to give your girlfriend, but I’m pretty easy to please.



I died and went to heaven. I get to sleep with fucking Wade Wilson!! I don’t think he thought I was going to like it as much as I did  but uhm, bitch how many Deadpool comics have a read and did I not just preorder the fucking tickets?! yeah I fucking love it and will be sleeping with it tonight.

I thought the comics he got me were great( and they are)  but I’m totally head over heels for a fucking pillowcase. The only way this could have been better if it was obviously my favorite comic character, The Joker- but my favorite Marvel character will do!

see its moments like this that make me want to keep him for a little while longer =)



Happy Aniversary!

Wait what are we celebrating?

Well not the return to WordPress( which would be 2 months) but my 1 month anniversary of writing!

Yes, I’ve only been writing for a month. And is has been absofuckinglutely amazing. I don’t think I’m good, if I’m going to be candid I hate everything, but only because I’m so new at it.

I wasn’t one of those people who wrote all the time when they were younger. I was in my head most of the time making up movie or book scenes- never having the strength or balls to write it down. I mean yearsss in my fucking head.

I did; however, have a love of words, books helped me grow, fiction was my future. Blah Blah Blah, forward somewhat years. I have this character in my head, she’s been with me for a while and I need to get her out. So I set out to start writing her story and what happens? Well lets say we didn’t get very far. She didn’t wanna speak, I didn’t want to write, but I still had things to say and thus forth came my blog.

It wasn’t into a couple of weeks of blogging( someone can correct me on this) that I actually started writing. Trust me when I say that was a complete fucking surprise.

I didn’t plan on sticking with it, but sometimes shit happens and you’re taken for a ride. A ride with 275 other people.  People who encourage you(some with knowledge) to become better.

I mean I can only become better right? ugh I’ll share that thought another day.

Thank you fellow bloggers!

Have a great day =)


Hey Schedule, What You Doing?

First off, a big hello and thank you to all my recent followers-seriously people? I mean, don’t go anywhere, but seriously?

Anyways, the semester is back upon me(shudder just to think about the coming weeks) and my posting my not be as much. Daily, yes but at certain times; as has been in the last week. Who knew scheduling your posts would be soooooo helpful; albeit a little troublesome( I keep forgetting what I post)

I’ll probably be posting 5-7 times instead of the 8 or whatever-lmao, now that I think about it that’s not much of a difference. I guess more of a heads up if my writing is shit or I’m not posting as frequently.

I want nothing more than to sit home and write- well technically I’ll still be home(yay for online classes) but I have to pass this semester in order to “graduate” in April. This blog isn’t a distraction, rather I am a distraction, always looking for anything else to get my mind off of doing what I should be doing.

I say all this now, present Jas, she’s pretty cool always down to get shit done but future Jas is a fucking bitch. She’s the leader of procrastination and mopping around. She knows how not to get things done and is pretty fucking great at it.

So well shall see how things turn out.

Wish me luck!


Money One Day-Broke The Next

I’ll never be rich- ill end up spending all my money on nonsense and sorbet.

I mean it , for reals. I have no sense of saving, okay, maybe a little but not enough to sustain me in life. I don’t even have an income.

I do have refunds that I get in the beginning of the semesters. Annddd I already spent most of it, in my defense, I do blame my impulse buying problem.

I needed a new charger for my phone. After so many arguments and sharing one charger I had enough- I need battery! So I went onto amazon in search of a charger to only get to the site and realized “hey, I need a new phone” and what did Jas do? Well she talked her boyfriend into getting new phones. Yes, I bought us both new phones and myself a new headset oh and some new books.

What. the. fuck.

I really need to stop doing shit like this, but I never buy myself anything or get anything so when the money comes I spend it.

This time, however; I cant get bitched at from the boyfriend since he got something out of it. The boyfriend wasn’t too thrilled about it at first until I told him it was his Christmas gift. He still felt a little bad so I made him take me grocery shopping from some sorbet(obsessed) and of course random shit. Whelp.

I am excited about my new phone since mine fell and got  a cracked screen hmm idk 2 weeks after getting it, so for the last 2 years I had a cracked screen. ( don’t judge I wasn’t paying 150 for a new one)

The only bad thing about this phone  and its not really an issue with the phone itself but rather the fact that my music didn’t transfer over. My apps and contacts did but not my 6100 songs. Its not that big of a deal but it is an inconvenience.

I won’t notice the dent in my minimal bank account until all those pesky pending transactions go through and then crawl into a ball and cry over some ice cream.