anger swirls behind my eyes,
sadness mixed with nausea
settle in my stomach;
unexplained and undefined,
can’t pin point exactly what’s wrong-
oh, hormones you bitch.
– Jas ©
anger swirls behind my eyes,
sadness mixed with nausea
settle in my stomach;
unexplained and undefined,
can’t pin point exactly what’s wrong-
oh, hormones you bitch.
– Jas ©
I’ve been gone for a while it seems, oops.
I was and still am dealing with a crazy, cranky teething baby- come on teeth pop out already. She has been teething for the last three months! Can you say drooly McDrool. Well the last couple of says have shown some promise and I’m prettt sure her first tooth will come out this weekend.
She has also turned 6 months old today. HOLY SHIT. why does it go so first. Alex joked she’ll be off to college in no time. Whyyy is he so mean lol. The good thing,we can finally begin BLW (baby led weaning) which is essentially giving baby the foods you eat no purees.
So for the last week or so I’ve been emerged in research and recipe collecting. We kinda started last night with some strawberries, a banana, cantaloupe and a piece of french toast. She loved it all and ate everything we gave her.
Another thing i was busy with during my absence was looking for a new car. We had a 300 (lease) but with no space and going over miles we needed a new vehicle. One that would be good family wise and one that can be a good vacation car to get us to NY in Aug.
Drum roll….
I talked the boyfriend into getting a minivan! We got the new Pacifica and its absolutely awesome. I can’t wait to go traveling with that badboy.
I’ll try not to disappear again.
Hope all is well with everyone and I will try to catch up with posts.
-Jas
sleepless nights are
worth it when I get
to wake up next to
your tiny face.
-Jas©
we speak in hush
tones, laughing under
our breaths; we mustn’t
wake the sleeping baby
between us.
-Jas©
I have been in relaxation mode despite having a 4 month old.
I recently started binge watching Mad Men on Netflix. I have a lot of catching up to do, being that there is 7 seasons and I’m only on season 3. I’ve literally been watching it any chance I get, building up my DVR with my regular schedule sh
Guess what?
I’m reading again! I haven’t read a book in months, it was kinda sad since at one point i was reading 7-10 books a week.
I just started American Gods by Neil Gaiman. I wanted to start it a couple of months back but never got the chance. Loving it so far. I plan on getting Sandman by him and a few others. It is a challenging reading over a baby though, so at a few points i have read it out loud to her.. lets just say there are a lot of fucks in it. I was going to censor it when reading it to her but then decided against it lol.
I’m thinking about doubling up and reading another book too. I have a TBR pile that needs to be dented.
I’m kinda really enjoying getting me time so to speak even if it is with my daughter. I’m getting back to me.
xo
-Jas
I have been gone lately sorry, we have family here from NY and with a new baby everyone wants a piece of her.
I have little time to write or even read anything on WordPress. They are leaving in a couple of days so I will be back then.
Hope everyone is doing well, having a great Easter weekend.
We will be celebrating Easter, Alex graduating from college and my little monster turning 4 months.
later xo
-Jas
my days are spent
with you in my arms-
my nights are spent
with you by my side.
-Jas©
morning bloggers!
no posts from me today, I’m being lazy and refuse to open my computer. I’m refusing from moving off the couch and getting dressed..for now.
I’m comfy with a baby in my arms catching up with shows from the DVR, i dont need anything else. Well except food which the baby daddy just went to go get.
Last couple of days have been a fucking drag, baby monster decided she was going to be a fussy, no sleep meanie. She excels at fighting sleep. The only way she’ll take naps is in my arms which is cute and all but i also like to go to the bathroom or wash some dishes..get things done, but its hard when its only you and putting monster down results in screams from hell. 😐
Baby daddy doesnt work today so I plan on pushing monster duties on him. Does that make me a bad mother? I just need 5 minutes without her scratching me or attached to my body. I love her i do, but i also love my sanity.
I know youre probably thinking but aren’t you holding her right now. Yes, yes i am, im trying to get her to nap so then I can become a ninja and place her in bed.(which has been very successful this weekend) If she doesn’t nap we will pack her up and take her for a car ride which 98% of the time puts her to sleep.
those are my awesome plans for today, exciting!
hope everyone elses day is going well.
-Jas
We lost power at 12 (noon) yesterday and still have nothing. We had a severe wind storm with up to 60 mph winds and it knocked down 4000 powerlines, leaving over 600000 people without power.
We have been hoping that the power would come on any minute but nope, hours have gone by and nothing, not even a flicker!
Yesterday and today it wasnt so bad weather wise but we did wake up freezing this morning so we ran to the living room and sat by the fire.
Tomorrow its supposed to be colder in the twenties and low teens and i have to keep a baby warm. The fire is nice but it gets smokey sometimes and she does not like it. Plus the fire only keeps one part of the house warm.
I want to sleep in my own bed. I want to lay on my own couch. I want a fucking hot shower.
They said 90% of people will get their power back on by sunday. Fucking Sunday! Theres no way I want to wait through the weekend, through cold weather for my power to come back on.
Looked into hotels and they are all booked up or really expensive. WTF. This has been the longest two days ever. I want it to be over already.
Lets hope the power comes on tomorrow and we dont freeze.
-Jas
hello bloggers!
shit, its been forever. It seems like yesterday that I was in here informing people that I had my little monster.
how is everyone doing?!
I have been busy taking care of the devil. kidding she isnt that bad (until she gets hungry or tired then the fires of hell come out of her)
She is going to be three months soon. ugh, time stop going by so fast. She looks like her papa and has my attitude. can babies even have attitude? either way she does. She is getting so big it’s unbelievable but amazing cant wait till she starts working, I mean walking.
I have also been completely uninspired, except for this week I dont know what it was, boredom or something I saw but it got me writing again. I have a few things ill be posting- finally.
it’s easy to forgot how much I liked writing my nonsense when i have to take care of someone else. I had to find my groove, to get a handle on things before I could get back to what I enjoy doing.
now, do I have a routine? are things in my complete control? fuck no. Most days I’m running around trying to figure out what the fuck is going on, but things are getting better.
I was surprised when out of nowhere I was typing away words. Are they any good? ppfh who knows or cares.Was I even ever good? don’t really care, maybe I was okay and thats fine with me. Just liked writing and interacting with the people on here.
I’m not going to make promises of staying or say a schedule because I dont know what will happen or how things will work out. I will say I’ll be on as often as I can.
-Jas.
(sorry if the pictures are huge, I’m writing this off of my phone. when I get a chance to open my computer I’ll fix it)