The last few months

Holy shit so much has happened in the last few months or so I feel like it. It’s been one crazy ass rollercoaster that’s about to fall off the tracks.

I had my third kiddo 6 months ago.. damn he’s already 6 months old. Yes that means my other two are already 5 and almost 3 😮

My daughter (the firstborn) started preK. My son was more upset than she was, but she’s thriving and loving it.

The husband and I celebrated 16 years together in October ( only 3 years married though).

My mother passed away in November (I’m going to write a whole post about that) and that has been difficult to deal with.

I went a took a class to become a Mortgage Loan Originator- the state test is coming up, fingers crossed 🤞

I celebrated 1 year in therapy recently too and I think I graduated since my current therapist wants me to go see someone else and get medicated 🤣

On the matter of medication my anxiety and depression went on a stroll and met up with post partum depression…what bitches.

Later,

Jas

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woke up sore

a little funny story for peoples mornings.

at night when the little ones asleep i go upstairs to the garage and smoke ( yes i started smoking again you judgmental bitches =p)

well i really wanted to smoke and relax from a hard day last night so im sitting in the garage getting some fresh air enjoying my blunt.I have her on the monitor so i know if she moves or whatever.

She starts to move and cry, i let her to see if shell put herself back to sleep. Nope, instead she decides to sit up and cry for me more so i have to put out my smoke real quick and run downstairs so she wont throw herself off the bed. (she sleeps in my bed with me)

So, i run down the stairs for her and and im running towards our room when my foot slips on a fucking hanger and i crash onto the floor, phone goes flying.

My daughter has no idea that i had just fallen despite the the really loud ” Ow, Fuck!”  because shes still crying.

I cant just lay here in pain and try to figure out if i broke anything, so i hobbled to the bed and took care of her.

All the while going shit my arm hurt, wait my knee hurts too, oh man and my hip.

i waited for her to fall back asleep to go check out my injuries.

safe to say nothing is broken lol but i am sore as fuck.

Boyfriend thinks its hilarious. I cant wait until he falls. Jerk.

daughter needs me again, this time i wont be running

later loves xo

-Jas

 

 

longer than expected

wow, so its been a few weeks since ive last opened my wordpress.

since my absence, the boyfriend and daughter got sick again, my mother came to visit, i got sick twice(including being sick right now) i went into a depressive state and was super angry and agitated with everyone.

Im doing a little better now, theres just somethings i have to deal with, eventually.

i missed writing but ya know when life gets busy and in the way everything else just drops away.

i will slowly be starting up writing again, i was also able to find myself some free time when the little monster goes down for the night.

Dont let that smile fool you, shes crazy.

cutest smile, ever!

Nothing special has really happen in the last few week, besides finally getting fucking warm! so happy that winter is over and we can enjoy the nice weather. We were all beginning to go crazy from being in the house all the time. Whomp.

Well little one is being a pain and keeps going into dangerous places so ill be back later.

heres some pictures just because =p

later loves xo

-Jas

MIA

I’ve been gone for a while it seems, oops. 

I was and still am dealing with a crazy, cranky teething baby- come on teeth pop out already. She has been teething for the last three months! Can you say drooly McDrool. Well the last couple of says have shown some promise and I’m prettt sure her first tooth will come out this weekend.

She has also turned 6 months old today. HOLY SHIT. why does it go so first. Alex joked she’ll be off to college in no time. Whyyy is he so mean lol. The good thing,we can finally begin BLW (baby led weaning) which is essentially giving baby the foods you eat no purees. 

So for the last week or so I’ve been emerged in research and recipe collecting. We kinda started last night with some strawberries, a banana, cantaloupe and a piece of french toast. She loved it all and ate everything we gave her.

Another thing i was busy with during my absence was looking for a new car. We had a 300 (lease) but with no space and going over miles we needed a new vehicle.  One that would be good family wise and one that can be a good vacation car to get us to NY in Aug. 

Drum roll….

I talked the boyfriend into getting a minivan! We got the new Pacifica and its absolutely awesome. I can’t wait to go traveling with that badboy. 

I’ll try not to disappear again.

Hope all is well with everyone and I will try to catch up with posts. 

-Jas

Relaxation

I have been in relaxation mode despite having a 4 month old.

I recently started binge watching Mad Men on Netflix. I have a lot of catching up to do, being that there is 7 seasons and I’m only on season 3. I’ve literally been watching it any chance I get, building up my DVR with my regular schedule sh

Guess what?

I’m reading again! I haven’t read a book in months, it was kinda sad since at one point i was reading 7-10 books a week.

I just started American Gods by Neil Gaiman. I wanted to start it a couple of months back but never got the chance. Loving it so far. I plan on getting Sandman by him and a few others. It is a challenging reading over a baby though, so at a few points i have read it out loud to her.. lets just say there are a lot of fucks in it. I was going to censor it when reading it to her but then decided against it lol.

I’m thinking about doubling up and reading another book too. I have a TBR pile that needs to be dented.

I’m kinda really enjoying getting me time so to speak even if it is with my daughter.  I’m getting back to me.

xo

-Jas

 

 

welcome!

just a quick HELLO THERE!  to all new followers.

Welcome and thank you. 

I’m not the greatest blogger,so dont expect much. 

I have a little one i take care of and im actually a pretty shy person so if i dont comment at all or a lot dont take it personal.

I like posts that’s my thing (im a shithead).

I do appreciate the follows 🖤

-Jas

in the face of danger…

run. 

kidding. I think.

I was holding the little monster sitting on the couch minding my own business when the baby daddy yells “OH MY GOD!!” while reaching for me. Out the corner of my eye I see a spider and i threw/let go of the baby. I also caught her within seconds realizing what I had done.  

She just looked at me with this WTF face. Oops, my bad i really didn’t mean to do it but i freak out when there are spiders around. 

I felt so bad but it is totally Alex’s fault for yelling like that. Do not yell at me if there is a spider just kill the fucking thing or i will flip. 

Mother of the year award definitely  goes to me. 

Alex jokes that if anything dangerous were to really happen or some kind of trouble I would be the woman already running head of them. 

I dont think he is wrong 😊

sigh, gotta keep a look out for those little beasts 🕷

-Jas 

Finally Over

My mini vacation is finally over. I guess you cant call it a vacation when you didn’t even go anywhere.  Alex’s family had come and while it was nice to see people it was a little too loud for me and Grace. She was good most times and really cranky other times. Her bed time has been all fucked up too. I’m glad to be getting back into our normal schedule.

Easter was pretty good for us. Here are some of my favorite photos from that day.

Little one is teething hence the fingers in her mouth, she also found her dress to be delicious.

Hope nothing too crazy has happened  while I was gone. =)

-Jas

Family Time.

I have been gone lately sorry, we have family here from NY and with a new baby everyone wants a piece of her. 

I have little time to write or even read anything on WordPress. They are leaving in a couple of days so I will be back then. 

Hope everyone is doing well, having a great Easter weekend.

We will be celebrating Easter, Alex graduating from college and my little monster turning 4 months. 

later xo

-Jas

New Blog!

I started another blog!

It doesnt contain poetry but  will consist of rants and thoughts on motherhood.

I don’t expect everyone to follow the new one and thats okay,  I’ll still be writing on here daily.

Just wanted to give my followers on here a chance to look at the other one and follow if they are interested.

It’s not 100% fleshed out. I’m not completely sure about it to be honest and is sort of a spur of the moment thing. So we will see how it goes.

Feel free to stop by and make suggestions or comments.

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-Jas