Relaxation

I have been in relaxation mode despite having a 4 month old.

I recently started binge watching Mad Men on Netflix. I have a lot of catching up to do, being that there is 7 seasons and I’m only on season 3. I’ve literally been watching it any chance I get, building up my DVR with my regular schedule sh

Guess what?

I’m reading again! I haven’t read a book in months, it was kinda sad since at one point i was reading 7-10 books a week.

I just started American Gods by Neil Gaiman. I wanted to start it a couple of months back but never got the chance. Loving it so far. I plan on getting Sandman by him and a few others. It is a challenging reading over a baby though, so at a few points i have read it out loud to her.. lets just say there are a lot of fucks in it. I was going to censor it when reading it to her but then decided against it lol.

I’m thinking about doubling up and reading another book too. I have a TBR pile that needs to be dented.

I’m kinda really enjoying getting me time so to speak even if it is with my daughter.  I’m getting back to me.

xo

-Jas

 

 

welcome!

just a quick HELLO THERE!  to all new followers.

Welcome and thank you. 

I’m not the greatest blogger,so dont expect much. 

I have a little one i take care of and im actually a pretty shy person so if i dont comment at all or a lot dont take it personal.

I like posts that’s my thing (im a shithead).

I do appreciate the follows 🖤

-Jas

in the face of danger…

run. 

kidding. I think.

I was holding the little monster sitting on the couch minding my own business when the baby daddy yells “OH MY GOD!!” while reaching for me. Out the corner of my eye I see a spider and i threw/let go of the baby. I also caught her within seconds realizing what I had done.  

She just looked at me with this WTF face. Oops, my bad i really didn’t mean to do it but i freak out when there are spiders around. 

I felt so bad but it is totally Alex’s fault for yelling like that. Do not yell at me if there is a spider just kill the fucking thing or i will flip. 

Mother of the year award definitely  goes to me. 

Alex jokes that if anything dangerous were to really happen or some kind of trouble I would be the woman already running head of them. 

I dont think he is wrong 😊

sigh, gotta keep a look out for those little beasts 🕷

-Jas 

Finally Over

My mini vacation is finally over. I guess you cant call it a vacation when you didn’t even go anywhere.  Alex’s family had come and while it was nice to see people it was a little too loud for me and Grace. She was good most times and really cranky other times. Her bed time has been all fucked up too. I’m glad to be getting back into our normal schedule.

Easter was pretty good for us. Here are some of my favorite photos from that day.

Little one is teething hence the fingers in her mouth, she also found her dress to be delicious.

Hope nothing too crazy has happened  while I was gone. =)

-Jas

Family Time.

I have been gone lately sorry, we have family here from NY and with a new baby everyone wants a piece of her. 

I have little time to write or even read anything on WordPress. They are leaving in a couple of days so I will be back then. 

Hope everyone is doing well, having a great Easter weekend.

We will be celebrating Easter, Alex graduating from college and my little monster turning 4 months. 

later xo

-Jas

New Blog!

I started another blog!

It doesnt contain poetry but  will consist of rants and thoughts on motherhood.

I don’t expect everyone to follow the new one and thats okay,  I’ll still be writing on here daily.

Just wanted to give my followers on here a chance to look at the other one and follow if they are interested.

It’s not 100% fleshed out. I’m not completely sure about it to be honest and is sort of a spur of the moment thing. So we will see how it goes.

Feel free to stop by and make suggestions or comments.

Inside Moms Head <<

-Jas

lazy Sunday

morning bloggers! 

no posts from me today,  I’m being lazy  and refuse to open my computer.  I’m refusing from moving off the couch and getting dressed..for now. 

I’m comfy with a baby in my arms catching up with shows from the DVR, i dont need anything else.  Well except food which the baby daddy just went to go get. 

Last couple of days have been a fucking drag, baby monster decided she was going to be a fussy, no sleep meanie. She excels at fighting sleep. The only way she’ll take naps is in my arms which is cute and all but i also like to go to the bathroom or wash some dishes..get things done, but its hard when its only you and putting monster down results in screams from hell. 😐

Baby daddy doesnt work today so I plan on pushing monster duties on him. Does that make me a bad mother? I just need 5 minutes without her scratching me or attached to my body. I love her i do, but i also love my sanity. 

I know youre probably thinking but aren’t you holding her right now. Yes, yes i am, im trying to get her to nap so then I can become a ninja and place her in bed.(which has been very successful this weekend) If she doesn’t nap we will pack her up and take her for a car ride which 98% of the time puts her to sleep.

those are my awesome plans for today, exciting! 

hope everyone elses day is going well.

-Jas

lights where are you?!

We lost power at 12 (noon) yesterday and still have nothing. We had a severe wind storm with up to 60 mph winds and it knocked down 4000 powerlines, leaving over 600000 people without power. 

We have been hoping that the power would come on any minute but nope, hours have gone by and nothing, not even a flicker!

Yesterday and today it wasnt so bad weather wise but we did wake up freezing this morning so we ran to the living room and sat by the fire.

Tomorrow its supposed to be colder in the twenties and low teens and i have to keep a baby warm. The fire is nice but it gets smokey sometimes and she does not like it. Plus the fire only keeps one part of the house warm.

I want to sleep in my own bed. I want to lay on my own couch. I want a fucking hot shower. 

They said 90% of people will get their power back on by sunday. Fucking Sunday! Theres no way I want to wait through the weekend, through cold weather for my power to come back on.

Looked into hotels and they are all booked up or really expensive. WTF. This has been the longest two days ever. I want it to be over already. 

Lets hope the power comes on tomorrow and we dont freeze.

-Jas

time flies when youre busy 

hello bloggers!
shit, its been forever. It seems like yesterday that I was in here informing people that I had my little monster.

how is everyone doing?!

I have been busy taking care of the devil. kidding she isnt that bad (until she gets hungry or tired then the fires of hell come out of her)

She is going to be three months soon. ugh,  time stop going by so fast. She looks like her papa and has my attitude. can babies even have attitude?  either way she does. She is getting so big it’s unbelievable but amazing cant wait till she starts working, I mean walking.

I have also been completely uninspired, except for this week I dont know what it was, boredom or something I saw but it got me writing again. I have a few things ill be posting- finally.
it’s easy to forgot how much I liked writing my nonsense when i have to take care of someone else.  I had to find my groove,  to get a handle on things before I could get back to what I enjoy doing.

now,  do I have a routine? are things in my complete control?  fuck no. Most days I’m running around trying to figure out what the fuck is going on, but things are getting better.

I was surprised when out of nowhere I was typing away words. Are they any good? ppfh who knows or cares.Was I even ever good? don’t really care,  maybe I was okay and thats fine with me. Just liked writing and interacting with the people on here.

I’m not going to make promises of staying or say a schedule because I dont know what will happen or how things will work out. I will say I’ll be on as often as I can.

-Jas.

(sorry if the pictures are huge,  I’m writing this off of my phone.  when I  get a chance to open my computer I’ll fix it)

New Year

Happy New Year!

Update time.

On December 16 i had my little munchkin, right before the midnight hour. I had to be induced the day before and then i had to have an emergency c section but it was all worth it. Shes the cutiest thing ive ever seen (and im not just saying that since shes my kid)

Hospital picture..already mean muggin it.

The hospital was fun…not. By time the weekend ended i was soo ready to go home. I had enough of nurses (albeit nice) coming in checking on me, i had enough of the shitty hospital food, and enough of those hospital walls. I did have an awesome room but id rather be in my own bed.

That monday i was discharged,yay! Rven though the midwife asked me if i wanted to stay an extra day.. pffh 4 days was good enough for me.. i wanted to get the fuck out of there, especially since my family was coming in three days.

My mom and stepdad came for christmas and spent a week with us. I love them but having them here along with the mother in law and a newborn had been emotionally draining. I definitely had an attitude more than i would have liked (and still have )but shit happens, i just had a baby. Having both grandmas in the house was lets say another experience. One that i dont care to repeat anytime soon or ever again haha.

Christmas was good, different since im used to going back home but was still nice. Had a little dinner his mom cooked; the sister in law (one that lives here) ended up coming over later in the night with her family. I cooked the Christmas Day dinner because why the fuck not 🙄.

The day my family left was the same day the sister in law and niece flew in from New York. They will be here for a couple more days. I dont mind them so much only because i actually get time for me and the little one without being bothered to go upstairs and stay with the family.

Squishhh faceee

Even as i right this, im in bed with the little one laid out across me sleeping (my arm is going numb but shes too cute too move) I still cant believe im a mom, crazy shit. I cant wait to we actually have time to ourselves and i dont have to share her (im greedy)

Last night we just stayed home with his mom, sisters and nieces (yes he was outnumbered in a house full of women) i was ready for bed by 9 but had to stay awake until the ball dropped..longest 3 hours EVER.

Good news(i think): baby sleeps through most of the night so im not sleep deprived but im also worried since uhm baby sleeps through the night lol. I cant tell if its normal or not but she eats well and seems happy so im not complaining.

Well my arm is officially numb and im starving so we will wish you a Happy New Year filled with lots of happiness, good things and blah blahs

Laters 💚

-Jas.