Woke up this morning to all the awesome love (likes and comments) uhm you guys really do fucking rock and are hilarious.

I’m attempting to get my shit together for the thousandth time; fuck, ive said that so many times I feel its pretty meaningless. Thereโ€™s no point in telling the boyfriend โ€œive heard that beforeโ€ is pretty predictable and expected, weโ€™ve been here so many fucking times. nonetheless, ill walk through ย this seedy, dark town, exit through the dilapidated gates and linger on the outskirts.

I never go to far.

No matter how far I say I am, I’m only a few feet away.

Maybe things will be different this time (shit I really should start collecting money for repeat sayings and promises)

Iโ€™m gonna tryย my daamn hardest to make it different but only if hes worth it. Iโ€™m just tired of having to pretend im something im not to compensate his feelings and needs.

Ugh I wont go into a whole thing about us, perhaps some other time.

Thanks everyone, love ya guys.

hope your day(s) have been going well.

I will be here and there today but I will get to all the comments, eventually =)




19 responses to “Morning

  1. ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’™ if I’ve learned anything over the last two years, Jas, it’s that no matter what I do, no matter how I act, no matter what I change, etc he’s never going to be happy if he’s looking to me for his happiness. He’s gotta find that within himself, just as I do. So, what I’ve concluded is that all I can do is work on me – become a better me, find what makes me happy… If he reaps some benefits of that, then so be it, but, I’m not doing it for him, I’m doing it for me. And, perhaps, maybe, I inspire him to do the same…hugs and positive thoughts to you!! ๐Ÿ˜˜

    • Yep, ive learned that too, i cant be his source of happiness and vice versa. Im working on the new me and i hope he will too. Thank you hun! Xo ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’œ

  2. Oh warrior, don’t feel like that.
    I’m not good at advice in love but I feel, “Love should take you as you are, not change you”. May all you problems be solved soon dear! Stay happy and blessed.

  3. If you enter into any relationship with expectations you are liable to be disappointed you know. Noone knows how a thing might work out. Without expectations there are no rules on how long you must wait to go lookin agin ! Settling down is only for when you find something to settle down for, not the other way round. have patience and fun and peace out, little lady ! ; )

    • i didnt expect anything when i came into this relationship.. shit i was a teenager, now that im older and learning about myself there are some things we can change and the same goes for him.. i think 10 years is enough time to figure out what we are doing and what we want lol at least a little.. i dont want a marriage, not at all.. just dont want to compromise too much. Haha im having fun (and getting in trouble lmao) and my patience is one some other level ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜Š

      • I was once told that ” If you would compromise with me on this you could still………….blah, blah . To which I replied” you really mean that if I could see my way fit to do everything the way you want me to……..Blah, blah. I did not see that anyone was giving anything but me, so I quit. That was my compromise with myself.See compromise works as long as both parties give a little, it does not if one party gives nothing. Let us party ! ; )

  4. But for real, you have a gigantic community here of friends that love you for who you are. We don’t want to see you crushed under the pressure of denying your true self. You have fight in you so I know you want to work hard on this ten year investment of a relationship and not quit. Just make sure you’re not burying the better parts of you six feet under to make it work.

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