10 days since you came;
10 days since I lost myself, again.
trying to figure out
how to be human-
a mother, wife, a woman,
is completely overwhelming.
– Dazed Mama
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my 3rd was born 8.11 and everything just seems upside down.. at least he’s cute 🙃
anger swirls behind my eyes,
sadness mixed with nausea
settle in my stomach;
unexplained and undefined,
can’t pin point exactly what’s wrong-
oh, hormones you bitch.
-Dazed Mama
I imagine
a fish gasping for air;
flapping about on the shore
wide eyed and scared-
we aren’t so different.
– Dazed Mama
I’m feeling a disconnection
between us; loving words
and caring gestures
that were once there
have been replaced
with tired bitterness.
-Dazed Mama
I spend all
of my free time
relearning how to
breathe.
-Dazed Mama
theres a certain time
during the day that i
dont want to be bothered with
your petty bullshit.
-Dazed Mama
the funny thing
about kids is that
they’ll never run out
of energy when they
are constantly sucking it
out from you
– Dazed Mama
I just wish
you would give me
the same level
of respect and energy
that I pour into you.
– Dazed Mama
you
go into your head
to escape the
horrors of reality;
judging my outbursts
and attention seeking,
wondering why I
talk too much or
never enough,
but never stop
to realize your comfort
is my worst enemy and
I can’t be alone
in my head.
– Dazed Mama
your fingers
lightly pressed
against my throat,
your mouth
whispering words
I can feel
between my thighs.
– Dazed Mama
