I Survived

The last two weeks have been a clusterfuck of non-stop work that kept assaulting me till I had no more energy. 

Yes, I’ve talked about this before, me being the biggest procrastinator in the world, put everything off because till the last minute because I had a case of the  senioritis. PLUS I was just lazy as fuck. I kind of gave up attempting to put effort into the things that needed to be done but mehhh. 

Between finishing up classes and finals , why would I really want to do an optional assignment? I didn’t – so they didn’t get done. I had to do a group final presentation, then study for my Linguistic final plus all the little things my online professor wanted to overload us with. 

I did; however, manage to pass all my classes…actually I shouldn’t say it like that since there was no room for failure( does that make me sound too cocky?)

I fail at a lot of things, I’m not scared to admit that, but the one thing I can’t fail at is school. I feel like that’s the only thing I’m good at. Meaning there was no way I was failing any classes at any time during the school year. 

It’s kind of a bittersweet moment because 5 1/2 years ago( yeah I took a little longer than expected) I remember entering college an 18 year shy girl,who honestly didn’t even want to go to college now a 24 year old who is shitting themselves thinking about walking across the stage tomorrow and getting a diploma. 

I actually did it – I survived college. 

Despite my really rough beginning I didn’t give up. Me, J , actually stuck to something( relationship doesn’t count lol) and even though I keep saying I’m not excited and I just want it to be over..I’m a little excited and proud of myself. I don’t want to get tooo excited and full of myself because the BF unfortunately still has another 2 years to finish his degree and has been really stressed lately, that I don’t want him to feel bad. 

So I just keep it to myself, or with you guys lol. Better than doing my happy graduation dance around the bf haha that wouldn’t make me very nice.

My mom , aunt and uncle flew in my NY to come watch tomorrow’s festivities. I’m excited I have seen them since January and I don’t know when I will be able to go back to NY, since you know I’m all adult now and should be in the real world. 

CONFESSION: yes even though I graduate tomorrow I still have two classes that stat on May 5- the end of June and an internship to complete before they actually send me my diploma

I’m not worried about the classes I’m EXTREMELY worried about the internship that I didn’t even start looking into. It has to be done this summer, yet since my resume contains shit on top of shit ( never worked a day in my life) no one wants me. 

Oh well the problems of a college student with no work experience. Ugh I don’t even want to think about that right now,,, maybe again on Monday lol . 

Till later.